Wednesday, December 29, 2004
went 4 bizcom chalet ytd wif jer..e chalet turned out quite ok lah..coz jer & i juz hung ard wif e pple we noe..anywae i act didnt intend 2 stay over..but in e end i stayed over coz of 2 reasons..1 was coz it was kinda late when e programmes ended & i didnt feel like walking out of ECP alone..e other was coz i thought maybe i shld accompany jer & give her moral support if 'he' came back. anywae jer & i didnt go wif e rest 2 eat supper coz we were kinda sian,so we juz sat @ e bench outside e chalet..watching e raindrops falling as we talked bout stuffs..while waiting 2 see if he'll return..yah so he did..but think jer felt even worse then..though i'm nt jer,but i really cld understand how she felt during dat time..i really felt sad 4 her..hai..
anywae jer, i noe u r feeling confused @ tis pt of time & u dunno wat u shld do..i noe u blame urself 4 nt doing wat u shld haf done..but truthfully,it's act veri natural dat u'll react tis way..yah god really do give us some chances @ times..but it's a matter of whether we dare & noe how 2 make use of e chances given 2 us..it's nt dat we dun appreciate these chances(of course we do since we've been praying 4 them)..but sometimes, it's juz dat when e chances cum 2 our doorsteps,we r @ a lost of wat 2 do..coz we keep thinking into it & worrying bout e consequences becoz we r concious of our own feelings 4 them..jer act i think u've already tried..so dun think so much..act ytd wasnt dat bad..@ least we can sense he was making an effort..so jer juz follow ur heart & do wat is within ur ability.
