Saturday, December 18, 2004
18th Dec 04 - exactly 6 mths since e day sth subconciously tugged @ my heart-strings..yet i only came 2 realise & acknowledge it only bout a mth later..but it was too late le..missed e chance 2 build up dat friendship..if only i cld turn back time..& go back 2 e time i 1st met him..maybe there cld be a better start..act his presence really meant nth 2 me when i 1st knew him..but now when i think back, i realised i do haf some vivid memories of him & e stuffs we did..does dat mean dat it was all along seeping into me subconciously juz dat i nv realised it? sometimes, i juz cant help thinking it's god's arrangement..coz it's e 1st time i felt tis way..it's a veri diff feeling which i cant describe..he's nt e type i wld go for act..but after meeting him, i've finally realised wat i've been looking for..& haf nv been clearer bout wat i want..juz dat unfortunately i lack e courage..so is it dat all i can do is watch on helplessly? juz asking myself now...Will i haf e will power & strength to carry on???
