Thursday, December 09, 2004
think i was zoning out when i wrote my most recent blog in e morning juz now coz was really tired frm e absence of sleep...so i didnt really get 2 search my inner soul 2 find e words 2 describe wat i've felt bout all dat has happened within those few hrs...i mentioned some things happened ytd nite @ jer's place...it was sorta like a "drama" unfolding rite in front of us..we did some things dat we ourselves didnt really prepare for..it was juz done on impulse..so maybe now we'll wonder if all tis shld haf been done(i realised dat all dat has been done 4 jer,cand & me...is coz all 4 of us noe wat each other haf been going thru & dun wish 2 see each other get all depressed & disorientated..as for hui..maybe it'll be our time 2 help u if there is e need)...but anywae now everything is too late 4 regrets..but surprisingly e fact dat it has been done did nt really affect me dat much..guess i ever thought of e possiblity of doing it when e time is ripe..though i was sorta sure there wld nv be a time dat is ripe 4 both of us.it was too late...our story nv had a beginning so wat ending cld it haf?anywae bout e contents of e conv..actually it was kinda neutral, there wasnt really a conclusion coz e whole truth was nt really revealed..but i noe e ans rite deep down my heart all along..so y was i feeling dat way ytd & feeling it rite now too? ytd nite i then realised dat my immunity failed me coz every tinge of emotions came back again..all so naturally & subconciously..well but since i've chose 2 walk tis path then i've juz gotta face up 2 e reality of it... ...
anywae 2 cand...i noe u r feeling terribly upset & affected...ytd ur reactions showed it all..i'm nt sure if u regretted us doing dat 4 u..but sometimes it's true we juz gotta be brave & face e truth whether e result is wat we want it 2 be or nt..it's @ least better than being left hanging there in midair, running away frm reality & letting it go juz like dat without seeking any explanation or reasons..yah i noe it's gonna be really embarrassing 4 u but juz act ignorant ba..take it dat u dun care k(dat's our motto)..i'll be doing dat too..we'll all get thru tis together..guess u've really learnt tis time round..u've learnt how harsh realities can be..& also 2 be strong rite..so let time heal e wounds...
