Wednesday, December 29, 2004
todae after sleeping 4 bout 3hrs after cuming back frm chalet, i went 2 ling's hse 2 play mahjong wif her & her 2 other frenz...act was kinda tired but coz i promised her le..so i went..anywae later we went 2 e coffee shop nearby 2 drink & chat...then i went home bout 9..surprisingly i'm nt dat tired after only sleeping 4 a few hrs..
anywae, ling passed me a letter she wrote 2 me..e moment i read it..e tears juz fell..becoz of some things she said..bout how much she treasures our friendship..she also wrote bout how she remembered dat we used 2 talk bout us being single..but now dat she's attached le..& i'm nt..she wonders if i'm ok & dat am i unhappie when she keeps talking bout her bf..act really i'm nt..i've nv felt jealous or anything..even when my 3 best jc buddies gt attached last yr..leaving me 2 be single & lonesome haha..in fact i really felt veri happie 4 them dat they haf found their happiness..although it's true dat last yr was a sad yr 4 me coz while i see my buds finding their happiness, nt only did i nt find mine..i gt hurt instead..hai..anywae if ever e cycle repeats itself again & my 3 RP mates get attached b4 me..i'll also feel happie 4 them(noe it, RP mates?haha)...it's ok if i'm left alone..i'll survive..haha..anywae another part dat ling wrote which made e tears flow again was tis: "Now that i've found my 'xing fu' le..i really hope that one day soon enough you'll find yours too...then u'll be as 'xing fu' as me..i noe that somewhere out there, there'll be a great guy juz waiting for you to pass him.." i rem she wrote something like tis 2 times in her past messages 4 me le..once was on my last yr's bdae & another was tis yr's vdae...everytime i read it..e tears cant help but flow..i alwaiz chose 2 believe in wat she said..& each time, i keep hoping dat it'll cum true 1 day..but it seems i'm still waiting as e time juz keeps passing me by...
tis is 4 my RP mates: but i believe dat god keeps us waiting & makes us go thru obstacles coz he is finding e right one for us & so dat when it really cums, we'll treasure it...so let's juz wait on ba
