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Monday, January 31, 2005


another mistake?
jer & i went for e Lee Kuan Yew's ministerial forum todae..'he' was also there..act didnt really thought of sitting wif him coz i didnt want him 2 think we went becoz of him..but in end we all still sat in e same row & kh,rh,'him',jer & i had late dinner together.well,i could sense his avoidance throughout e whole thingy..& act i was avoiding him too mainly becoz i didnt want him 2 think dat i had intentions 2 get close 2 him..it seems 2 me dat he's running away frm reality & trying to 'push' me towards "another direction"..i noe he may nt realise it..but wat's he's doing is actually unintentionally making me more unhappie..coz it juz shows how little importance our friendship is to him..am i really wrong in falling for him?i've nv expected or demanded anything in return frm him..so y is he treating me like some unwelcomed soul?looks like i've made another mistake in love again..anywae,i'm satisfied by juz simply watching him..though it hurts deep down when each time i look @ him i noe he's nt thinking of me e way i'm thinking of him..& it rips my heart whenever i think of e greater amt of effort he puts in keeping me out of his life than keeping me as a fren

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