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Monday, January 10, 2005


it's time 2 step away...
i'm feeling better than in e morning..@ least my tears r under control 4 e time being..i've decided i juz wanna concentrate on my studies now..dun wanna let anything else affect me le..act e thing dat hurts me e most is nt e fact dat he has no feelings 4 me..but dat he act think dat my feelings 4 him is only a crush..yah i dun blame him 4 thinking dat way coz we dunno each other well enuf & he cant seem 2 see wat reason i haf 4 liking him..well i really dun haf e answer myself..but love itself doesnt need a reason rite..i didnt like him becoz of his looks or becoz he treated me well or becoz i was close 2 him..there's none of these..yet i still can develop feelings 4 him..doesnt tis show dat i dun needa find a reason 2 like him?i like him 4 who he is..& i believe dat u really love a person when even if there r some things dat u dun like bout him,yet u r still be able 2 accept him 4 who he is & wont think of changing him unless it's 4 his own gd..anywae like wat cand said,we hafta be prepared 2 get rejected when we tell our him dat we like them..yah i've accepted it & resigned 2 fate..wat's nt meant 2 be mine will nt be mine..but maybe now dat e conclusion is out & there is no more hopes left 4 me 2 pin on or there's nth i can expect in return..maybe tis will relieve e burden of e inner struggle i had 4 e past few wks..thinking of how 2 build up e friendship..now i juz hope 4 a normal friendship & dat we can work together 4 YEP without much awkwardnes..i juz wanna be MYSELF now le..i'm juz too tired..even if he doesnt noe it or i dun really show it..my heart will be wif him till e time i can completely forget him..rite now i can only give up hope but i wont push away my feelings 4 him even though it's nt possible btw us le coz i noe i wont be able 2 do it

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