Wednesday, January 12, 2005
sth 2 be proud of..haha..
k i gotta say i'm proud of myself todae..@ least i acted normal..erm..except 4 in e morning...when it was so coincidental..jer & i walked past 'him' along e corridor when we were heading 2 arts canteen(seeing him in campus is like once in a blue moon kinda thing lor)..anywae jer 'scolded' me 4 nt greeting him..but is coz he didnt look in my direction wat..& i didnt want 2 seem fake mah..i juz smiled all e way lah..ok anywae after dat jer kept asking me if i'll be able 2 'make it' later 4 csl..i said i really dunno..coz i may be determined 2 act normal..but once in his presence..i may lose myself again..act i was comtemplating if i shld go 4 csl todae coz i was really scared dat there'll be awkwardness..but coz in e end i decided nt 2 go against my work ethics juz becoz of him..anywae luckily i went..@ least we did talked..@ chomp chomp where we had supper..he talked 2 me 1st bout yep stuffs when there was only 3 of us left @ e table..& he talked quite seriously..of course we had 2 haf eye contact..so i held his gaze throughout e whole conversation..2 be polite & also coz i wanted 2 show him dat i'm nt scared of looking into his eyes..then i juz asked him some qns @ times lor..after dat there was a pt of time when e gal beside me walked off 2 somewhere leaving us alone..i was like oh no..wat 2 say..then we became silent 4 a while..but after dat i asked him a casual qn & he answered me..then luckily e gal came back fast..anywae after a while..we left e place..ok @ least tis time i really tried 2 be myself..i think i'm getting able 2 do it coz now i noe i'm nt gonna expect anything liao
