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Friday, April 08, 2005


lost existence
i haven been blogging doesnt mean i haven been thinking..juz dat am trying hard nt 2 let my heart take over my mind amidst my busyness..but juz felt like penning down my thoughts todae..hai wif more living testimonies, i really haf no choice but 2 believe e notion dat no matter how much one fu4 chu1, some things r juz nt meant 2 be urs..it's really saddening 2 see e frenz ard me feeling troubled over such stuffs..i juz feel helpless..maybe is coz i've surrendered my heart to fate..so i haf no answers to those "why" questions myself...sometimes when i see e side of frenz who r happily attached i try 2 get myself 2 believe dat one day dat day will cum..but then when i see e other side of frenz & also frm my personal experiences, i cant help but lose faith..wat hope is there left 4 us to hold on to?wat's e use of putting in ur whole heart juz to get hurt & disappointment in return rite?so i've decided dat e word 'love' shall nt exist in my life dictionary for now..then y am i still hanging on to e pathetic remains of sth dat shldnt exist?

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