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Monday, January 30, 2006


chinese new yr tis yr is boring for me..i only visited a pathetic few no. of houses..while some came over on chu yi to bai nian. i really think dat cny has lost its meaning for me le..it's no longer e same & will nv be too..i miss those times. anyway visited my grandpa at his nursing home today..i alwaiz get emotional when i visit my grandparents..coz i'll start thinking back bout e times when my grandparents r still healthy & ambulant..when my grandma will stuff us with her cooked food whenever we go over to their hse..i still rem on some days she wld travel all e way frm her hse @ redhill to my hse @ ang mo kio to bring her home-cooked food for my sis & me..i really miss her dishes but i can nv get 2 taste them again..& whenever we go over to their hse, my grandpa wld go downstairs to buy sweets or ice-cream for us..& i still rem coz last time my sis & i used to collect phonecards, he wld alwaiz keep his phonecards or used phonecards dat he found & pass them to us. my grandparents really doted on us grandchildren alot. but now things will nv be e same again..now all i see is my grandma who cant really recognise us grandchildren at times..but she loves to smile & her innocence nv fails to make me smile too..so at least whenever i see her i dun feel so sad..but as for my grandpa he hardly smiles so it makes me feel sad whenever i look at him. one of my regrets is i cant converse with my grandparents..before they became senile they cld understand mandarin so we spoke to them in mandarin but now they only speak in dialect so it's difficult for us to converse with them. so whenever i visit them, my dad will do e talking & i'll juz sit there to watch them & respond to them when they talk to me. but juz quietly watching them is enuf for me..sometimes i juz wish i cld be by their side all e time. i wish i cld do things for my grandparents or bring them out to make them happy juz like wat we do for e touch seniors we visit..but it's nt possible coz they cant walk or do much except sit on e wheelchair or lie in bed..so all i can do is visit them..i really wish i cld do so more often.. i promise i'll try to.

juz felt like writing bout my grandparents today coz gt alot of gan chu..in fact i get pretty emotional whenever i think of them..i really pray dat they can be healthy & haf a long life coz i really love them alot.

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