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Sunday, April 22, 2007


fear is wat i'm feeling rite now..e fear of losing someone dear to me. i juz heard dat my grandpa's condition is unstable & dat there's a possibility dat he may go anytime..i noe i've to be mentally prepared..but somehow i'm afraid i wont be able to accept it. all these years ever since my grandparents went into e nursing home after they r unable to look after themselves, i've been very worried bout them..worried dat they'll leave me one day ...i noe they r old & death is juz a matter of time..but i cant imagine e thought of it.

i miss seeing my grandpa when he was still fine, him smiling & eating e snacks we buy for him coz he loves eating..but dat day when i saw him at e hospital, he didnt even touch his lunch. ever since he was admitted into e nursing home, my grandpa hasnt gotten e chance to haf chinese new yr reunion dinner wif us..he hasnt gotten e chance to see my grandma in years.. i've been waiting for e day when he has e chance to do so...but will he ever?

i'm really afraid...
god...pls dun take my grandpa away frm me...

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