Saturday, September 08, 2007
hui left for china for her student exchange programme today & will only be back in jan..will miss her! but i guess we'll all be so busy dat we wont take much notice of e time & she'll be back before we know it. wonder wat RP gals will be like when hui is back in jan..will we still be surviving? ok *touchwood* but we r all really going thru e toughest period in our lives rite now.
i'm totally burnt out...when will tis never ending cycle of work & pressure end? e thought of giving up has actually crossed my mind a few times..during e times when i feel like i cant take all tis anymore.
initially, i thought after e conference event is over, i'll haf a huge load off me..but i am wrong..e other huge project is also zapping up all my energy..even more actually. i've been staying back late at e office even more frequent than previously..i dunno y, it seems i'm even busier..but one thankful thing is dat it's less stressful, coz e client i'm working wif is less demanding & quite ok to work wif. but still, i've been so burnt out..staying in e office till 10,11 & even 12 midnight & still having to bring work back to do till like 2am in e morning. frankly i dun mind slogging my guts out for work..since it's my 1st job & it's always tough at e beginning..but i cant take e fact dat i've to tolerate wif a shitty superior who only knows how to scream & shout when things r nt done up to her expectations & yet doesnt help to guide me along. i've been doing my best & i really think i've been doing fine esp as a newbie..but she's still nv satisfied..urghhhh...talking bout her makes my blood boil! i really wonder how long i can tolerate her!!??
anyway found out another friend of mine is also in a similar boat as me..we r now OT companions...it's crazy..y r we being tortured like tis? nt having proper meals & sufficient sleep..nt having much social life anymore except for on weekends..which i still cant relax & enjoy myself at ease coz of all e stress..& also getting nagged at by my parents for neglecting my health. i seriously need a break frm all tis! i'm ernestly praying for an end to tis crazy amount of workload that i've to carry all by myself!
ok sorry for letting u all read bout my complaints, but i really need an outlet for my frustration and stress. hai i'm super tired after a whole week of crazy days & late nights..now am going to haf a proper homecooked meal before having to get back to doing my work stuffs again.
