Saturday, October 20, 2007
met cand for dinner ytd at tis taiwan eatery opp bugis junction which i chanced upon while waiting for cand to arrive. anyway we tried tis dessert - rice wine with rice balls for e 1st time..tasted quite nice actually. after dinner, we went to catch a movie as planned. initially we intended to watch 'Brothers' but e timing at Bugis was too late, & we were lazy to go to some other cinemas. so we decided to juz settle for 'Superbad' which was e only movie there wif a suitable timing. but guess it was quite a bad choice of movie..coz it was super crude & lame..our conclusion was it was a super bad movie..haha..ok it's nt dat terrible also..at least it made me burst into laughter occassionally..haha.
anyway ytd's post mortem meeting wif my client set me pondering about my job & my current self ever since i started work. coz my client noes tis is my 1st job, so he told me dat it's usually e toughest during e 1st few yrs for everyone. & he said it's better to get "whacked" now so one will be able to learn more & will have it easier for them in e yrs to come. well ever since i started work, i feel something amiss in me..it's like i've somewhat lost dat glow in me..it may nt be obvious on e outside..but i can feel it inside me. then at tis pt of time, i think back & rem dat i've always aspired to be a successful career woman..& tis is e industry dat i want to be in..& these r e things dat i'm supposed to like doing..so y am i feeling tis way? y am i now afraid of facing challenges..actually i noe e ans..it's simply becoz i'm afraid of making mistakes..becoz i'm afraid of being "whacked", coz it hurts after being "whacked". but like wat my client said, it's better to get "whacked" now then later..which i do think it's true.
so i'm telling myself now..i muz learn to embrace my job, whether how stressful or challenging it may be. since i've already tide thru such a terribly tough period previously, i'll be able to survive as long as i keep learning! so i shall now try to see my job in a different angle, as something dat i've passion for instead of something dat i fear. & i muz nt let e glow in me fade away juz becoz of e pressures of my job!
okie enuf thoughts for today. i shall go watch tv b4 i get ready for an early night..coz tml i'll be going for e Great Eastern Women Run wif cand. yeah a good chance to sweat out!
